A Day in the Life of Me

 Quick post before I leave from work. I'm SO stoked for 3 reasons (maybe more, we'll see). 1. My sister is coming up for Thanxgiving (which is weird because I was so mad at her last Thanxgiving). But I'm really excited because I havn't seen here since May. 2. After she gets here, we're going to go to the NY on Thanxgiving day to see the Macy's Day Parade!!!!!!!! That's like the most exciting thing for me. I have ALWAYS wanted to go to that parade, and now we prolly are!!! I'm so excited!!  And the day after Thanxgiving is the biggest shopping day of the year, and we’re gonna hit every spot! And Talia’s company (NASCAR) is paying for all of our hotel rooms which means they’re gonna be way swanky! 3. We're going to go and visit Talia for Christmas. Now as of last year that wouldn’t have been too much of a big deal. However, Talia is now a resident of……DAYTONA, FLORIDA!!  So it’s NYC for Thanksgiving and Florida for Christmas. This is how it should be!! I'm super excited. Hopefully this'll be the next best two months ever! I'm SO excited.

I am going out of my freakin' mind. Does anyone know how hard it is to be realistic? Ugh, it's killing me. For those of you who don't know, let me elaborate. I'm not doing any theatre, music, or dance stuff right now (*gasp!!*). My father is always like, 'why don't you minor in music or theatre because you love it so much?' My response to him is that a minor in music is a waste of my time. I love everything about the performing arts, but I also know how hard it is to "make it" in tha field. It's next to impossible! My thing is this: What if I minor in theatre? When I graduate, I won't be able to get a good job because there are no jobs for psych majors until (at the extremely very least) after grad school. So, if I minored in theatre, I would pretty much be doing grad school while like being a waitress, and that's okay, but if I minored in art history (which I'm thinking about doing), that might give me a bit more of an opportunity. I'm planning on taking a year (or so) off after graduation next year to completely devote my time and energy to the performing arts. With that, I will have an art history minor to fall back on and maybe get a job as an art dealer or something a bit better than a waitress. That's my whole reason for not really doing anything in the performing arts now and IT'S TOTALLY KILLING ME! I'm gonna take a music and/or dance class next semester, but it really is not the same. But I have to just keep telling myself that next year I will be free to completely do the one thing that I love more than.....prolly almost anything in the world!! Anyway, it's time for breakfast. Peace Out!!!!!

I just want to say that no matter what....."some people" will always be bitches, whores, and sluts. That is all.

Now that I've finished the Harry Potter book, my life has seemed kind of...empty. Lol. I have nothing to do except study and work. Ugh. This is why I hate the summer. I overexert myself WAY too much and I wind up getting sick...ALWAYS! And I won't get a break until classes start in August. But I guess it's okay. I mean, I do love making money, I just hate my job. Who wants to be behind a desk for 48 hours?? What kind of life is that? I should start looking for a different job. That's a great idea! I'll start looking now, and so I can quit by the time classes start. I'm just so over the behind the desk on campus job. I would rather be working......I don't know where. Something creative. But the most creative thing here is....I don't know. I havn't found it yet. If I want creative stuff I'd have to go to the capital or Philadelphia or even NY (which I might be going to in two weeks!!). But anyway, I just hate my job. I don't know what it is about it though. In MI, I had pretty much the same job and I worked there for a year (maybe 2, I don't remember). Maybe I'm just getting too old for this, or maybe I'm too young for this. At least I had other student workers to talk to in MI. Here, the one person closest to my age is like 25, and that would be cool, but she doesn't talk much...like at all. She pretty unaproachable. Other than that, it's just a bunch of old ppl. There will be more student workers in the fall, but...Idk. I prolly wouldn't be so crabby if I got paid for what I did. Most days I don't really have many projects to work on. But there are those days when I have to make like 4 hand delieveries in (no lie) 90 degree whether to buidlings that are (no lie) at least a mile away. There are days when I seriously don't sit for more than five minutes all day because I'm so busy. But then I get my check and see that the fucking state of Pennsylvania took over $100 out of my check. I work my ass off just to get gyped! It's bullshit and it's not even worth it. But that's not the only thing that bothers me about this job. Even on days when I just sit here all day and read, study, play on the computer or whatever, I'm just not satisfied. Maybe if I didn't work so many hours I would appreciate it more.....maybe not. Maybe it's not the job, but it's the place. I miss my friends in MI so much, but because I'm so freakin' busy, I don't hardly get time to even talk to them. Ugh. I'm starting not to like this situation. Whatever.

I'm at work and I'm REALLY bored. Mondays are usually our realatively busy day, but for some reason, it's just slow. Fortunately though, time is just flying by. Seriously, everytime I look at the clock, another 45min have gone by. Anyway, I figure that I would just post something...anything to occupy my time. In a few days I will be leaving PA for MI. I'm super excited! I get to see my bestest buddies in the whole world and we're gonna hang out and (hopefully) have a jolly good time! I'm super excited. But I'm also excited to see my family too. My Grandfather's coming up from Georgia for my aunt's party (the whole reason we're going to MI in the first place), and I get to see my cousins, aunts, grandmother, my sister (who I'm staying with) and....my dad. I don't know how I feel about that. The last time I saw him he pissed me off so bad that I was glad he was leaving and that I wouldn't have to see him for a while. I'm trying to just forget the incident, but it's hard when I know that it's not going to be the last time he pisses me off. And now, he's gonna be staying in PA for like 2 months. I'm happy for mom because she really misses him, but I'm apprehensive. At least I'll be at work all day and then I can lock myself in my room and do homework (because my class will have, hopefully, started by then), play my piano or guitar or something and/or watch tv without actually having to interact with him. He didn't piss me off too bad when I was in Michigan before moving here, so maybe we'll get along better. For my sake, I really hope so. Ugh. It's awful that I have to brace myself to get mad at my father, but that's just how it is. He doesn't know how to express himself well, so he does it in ways that irritate and piss me off. As a psychologist in training, I tend to analyze the things he does and attempt to figure out why he's like that, and then I attempt to explain to him why it makes me mad. But do you think he listens? No. But whatever. I only have a year or so and then it's (hopefully) off to NYC or wherever. But I really need to not live with my parents anymore. I mean, it's pretty cool for right now because we just moved, and I wouldn't want to be by myself in PA anyway, but  after this, I really need to break away from the 'rents. Maybe I'll move back to MI....nah. But it'll be somewhere. Anyway, that's all I feel like saying right now.

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Cry me a River-Justin Timberlake

The reason why I moved to PA: OPPORTUNITY. And here is my first opportunity: American Idol auditions are in Philladelphia!! I almost chocked on my spit! I'm super excited and super nervous, but I'm gonna give it a shot. Unfortunately the audition date is Aug 27 (BTW, fall classes start on Aug 27). Ugh. But still, how cool is this?! I'm stoked!

So, check it out. I couldn't decide whether I wanted to go to Philly or to NYC for Memorial Day, so, I might be doing both. My God, I LOVE this state! We're thinking about driving into Philly like early Saturday morning, spend the day and then take the train into NYC. This is one of the main reasons that I decided to move here. I would NEVER in my life get to do this still living in MI. I mean, I go to NYC, but I wouldn't be able to go to both awesome places in one weekend. It's gonna be awesome. But we're still not sure on the exact plans yet, but whatever we do is gonna be super fun (I hope. lol). Okay, that was all I wanted to say. I havn't been able to post in like forever and I just wanted to update. Okay, peace out!

I'm 21 bitches!! I've been waiting for this day for an incredibly long time! And not only did it finally come, but it also came with the most kick ass party of my life!! I found the most awesomest dress in the world and I was SO freakin' excitied! AND Amy came down (up? whatever...) from Baker and surprised the heck out of me! I had just talked to her like an hour before the party and I was telling her how I was sad that she couldn't come, and then she totally surprised me! It was great. There were a few emo moments with some ppl, and it almost brought down my night, but I decided not to let it get to me and just had an absolutely fabulous time! We've been working on this party thing for a very long time, and it came out just perfectly. I don't think I would have liked to have it any other way. I was a bit bummed when the roommate and the boyfriend came back that night because then we couldn't be as loud as we were, and I think that's when we all started coming down off of our high, but it was just such an awesome night and an awesome way to remeber all of my friends whom I absolutely love to death! I just can't beleive that I'm 21! I've been saying that all day, and I just really can't believe it. I'm just so stoked! And now, I'm ready to go to sleep because we didn't go to sleep until like 5:30, I got woken up at 7-ish, and then again at 12:30-ish. If I hadn't been woken up, I prolly wouldn't even be waking up until like now. Lol. But now, I have to finish studying for my sociology final which is on Monday (I freakin' loath that class). Okay. That is all.

Ah, what an unbelievably awesome day!! Don't you just totally love when like EVERYTHING goes your way? I am extremely ecstatic with the way things have turned out today. It's just nice to know that things can be manipulated to how you want them! Yay!!